Okay, so I've been waiting to hear back from my doctor on whether they will take my insurance or not. Well after three weeks they finally got back to me! I get to have my doctor, which is a big relief, she's the only one i feel comfortable with. They have a family practice so my mom, my grandma, my aunts, everyone in my family goes to them. It's a father daughter, so it's super exciteing to have them. The only bad thing is that I will have to deliver the baby at Victory Memorial Hospital, in Wakegan! Yuck! I'm super nervous now. I'm not too impressed with the hospital itself. Well it can't be that bad because I was born there and several other people in my family and johns family have and everyone turned out okay. But it's just ghetto if you askme, not to sound rude or anything. I just hope everything goes well there. I guess all that matters is that I have my doctor delivering the baby, that is if either one of them are in town. It seems for everyone of our births they were on vacation! How crazy is that...
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
A piece of my heart
About six years ago, I fell in love. It was the first true boyfriend i had, I thought it was the greatest thing in the world. I never thought that i could live without him. I was young, naive, I revolved my world around him. I was so crazy in love. BUT was it really love? How do you know when you are so young what love really is? I think that no matter what age you are whether you are fifteen years old or sixty years old you can find love, it is always there, it is up to you to cherish it no matter what happens.
Love works in mysterious ways, it's like a poker game, you don't know what your going to be dealt with next. Love is not a joke, you must take it seriously and you have to fight for it. Even when times get tough and you think there's no way it can get any better. You have to fight for it, when you don't and you cop out, you may make the biggest mistake of your life, and you may say or do things that you will regret.
Take it from me. I was with my first love for five years. We gave our hearts and souls to one another. Something we will never fully get back. Our whole relationship was a battlefield, there were so many things that we had to fight through to be with each other. We even had gotten engaged. But I think that we both were so comfortable together and so afraid of other things that we decided to get engaged. Don't get me wrong we loved each other deeply but it was not the love we once felt for on another.When i accepted that ring i made a promise to him, i gave him my word, my life, my everything. I broke that promise. I let the dark side pull at my heart, I made poor decisions, which I regret. I let him, I let myself and most of all I let GOD down. It's not so much the decision I made to leave him, it was the way that I left him. I gave my heart away to another guy, who is amazing and I do love. But i live with regret every day the way i let things happen.
We were both immature, we needed to grow up, neither one of us fought hard enough for one another. Well I guess this blog really is an apology to the people that i hurt along the way. I have lost a loved one, I have lost friends because of my poor decisions. This is my apology to you. I'm sorry for my wrongs. I honestly did not want to hurt anyone, I just wanted to be happy. And I believe that we both are moving one with our lives, even though it was a tough time, we both have never been happier. It's time to move on and start new lives.
You lose love, and you gain love. It's up to you to fight for what you want, fight for love. The love lost will always have a piece of your heart, you need to save your heart for that person who is truely special, once you give it away you won't get it back, and the person you love will never fully have your heart that they deserve.
Love works in mysterious ways, it's like a poker game, you don't know what your going to be dealt with next. Love is not a joke, you must take it seriously and you have to fight for it. Even when times get tough and you think there's no way it can get any better. You have to fight for it, when you don't and you cop out, you may make the biggest mistake of your life, and you may say or do things that you will regret.
Take it from me. I was with my first love for five years. We gave our hearts and souls to one another. Something we will never fully get back. Our whole relationship was a battlefield, there were so many things that we had to fight through to be with each other. We even had gotten engaged. But I think that we both were so comfortable together and so afraid of other things that we decided to get engaged. Don't get me wrong we loved each other deeply but it was not the love we once felt for on another.When i accepted that ring i made a promise to him, i gave him my word, my life, my everything. I broke that promise. I let the dark side pull at my heart, I made poor decisions, which I regret. I let him, I let myself and most of all I let GOD down. It's not so much the decision I made to leave him, it was the way that I left him. I gave my heart away to another guy, who is amazing and I do love. But i live with regret every day the way i let things happen.
We were both immature, we needed to grow up, neither one of us fought hard enough for one another. Well I guess this blog really is an apology to the people that i hurt along the way. I have lost a loved one, I have lost friends because of my poor decisions. This is my apology to you. I'm sorry for my wrongs. I honestly did not want to hurt anyone, I just wanted to be happy. And I believe that we both are moving one with our lives, even though it was a tough time, we both have never been happier. It's time to move on and start new lives.
You lose love, and you gain love. It's up to you to fight for what you want, fight for love. The love lost will always have a piece of your heart, you need to save your heart for that person who is truely special, once you give it away you won't get it back, and the person you love will never fully have your heart that they deserve.
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